So, last night the Texas Rangers handed out sunglasses at the gates to fans for the purpose of setting a new Guinness World record. What record what that might be you ask? The most amount of people in one place wearing sunglasses after dark. Crazy right? I thought so, but hey its different! Hahahaha We aren't as creative as the Rays with their dress coded road trips, so we had to do something! Most of the 33,533 people there were wearing their red or blue sunglasses. Since they only needed 424 to beat the record, Guinness only counted 2 sections. The shades were donated by Reliant energy, nice of them :) What I find amusing is former President George W Bush and Club President Nolan Ryan were spotted sporting their shades when the scoreboard and Announcer said the project was starting at the end of the 6th inning. Here is a link with a story about on MlB Also, today is the everyday second baseman's 29th birthday Ian Kinsler! I hope we get a win for him tonight! Back to the world record, we set this record during the Silver Boot series. Not sure how many of you know about this that aren't Rangers fans, but its the interleauge series between the Texas Rangers and the Houston Astros. They have been doing this since 2001, and the Rangers have won it the last 4 years in a row. I think its pretty much in the bag this year since we've won the first 2 games in the series, but this is my first year getting to see it, so I'm not familar with the rules. Either way, I am willing to bet you, the Rangers walk with another Silver Boot this year. I love when Texas teams play against each othr, especially when its against Houston. I hate any team that comes out Houston, always have and always will. No real reason other than I just hate Houston lol. Last year when the Cowboys played the Texans, I was on the edge of my seat and still say it could've ranked in my top 5 games last yeasar. Granted, I don't think the Cowboys won, but I just love interstate games!
Well, this was just a posting to help remove the writers block I've had on the Vegas postings, so enjoy :)
Amanda Ellen
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Viva Las Vegas Day 1
Ok, so after some thought and a not so much suggestion from RO, I have decided to break this up into days. This makes it much more bearable and easier to read. So instead of 1 huge monster you are getting 5 smaller monsters. So ladies and gents, I give you day 1:
VIVA Las Vegas
So yeah, I am going to do my best to tell you all about my trip to Las Vegas, Sin City, or one of the dryest places I have ever been! HAHAHAHA
It really wasn't too bad, the weather I mean. I was totally not expecting my allergies to hate it because I mean what is there to be allergic to? Well, I probably should've brought the benadryl, because Taylor and my allergies weren't completely wacky but it would've helped. Also I should've brought Leah's benadryl because the desert is not kind to her allergies or to her skin.
She tried really hard to not chew herself but I guess she just couldn't help it. Poor pup she wasn't completely miserable, but she could've been more comfortable. So, enough about the medical stuff on to documenting my trip!
The plane ride out there started out ok, but once we tried landing our pilot was an idiot or something because when he was trying to descend we ended up doing like a nose dive thing, and it had most of the plane thinking we were going to die.
People screaming and holding each other, and all I could think was I didn't get but like 5 minutes with Taylor before he left and I'm not going to make it to Vegas to be reunited, this is bullshit!
So yeah, the pilot straightened us out and started talking over the intercom saying"In case you haven't noticed, we are making our descent into Las Vegas." Just as calm as a cucumber..pissed me off! But I do have to say he could take up being a tour guide if he wanted, he kept telling us to look out our windows to see some cool stuff.
The main two things that come to mind were the mountains and the Arizona wild fires, obviously both were clearly visible from 30,000 feet in the air. That made me wish I could see! But once I got off the plane the staff at the Las Vegas airport were more than helpful and made me feel very good about getting my luggage and getting to my hotel.
I only wish that checking in at the airport would've been possible, but couldn't since I didn't have the card for the room to be charged to.
The ladies that helped me off the plane, found my luggage with no problem, carried it around for me, and even made sure I got on the shuttle to the airport safely! The shuttle driver was a bit nervous about having a blind person on board, and I had to help him tell me which MGM we were at and figure out if I was getting off at the right one! I never thought to look to see if there was more than one MGM Grand in Vegas, so I started to freak a bit!
So, that covers the getting there part. :)
So, I got there and called Taylor to see if he had arrived, and he said they were there so awesome right? Not so much, I went inside with the help of some other people staying at the hotel and got to the desk to try and check in just to find out Taylor had not checked in yet!
So, its like after 3 in the desert which makes it after 5 in Texas and I'm going on like over 8 hours without nicotine, and in desperate need. I ask the lady at the desk if someone can help me outside to wait for Taylor. They then let me check my luggage at the "Bell Desk," so I don't have to lug it outside with me. How awesome is that?
I know I'm from a small town in Texas and this all just seems way too awesome to me! So, anyways, I'm sitting outside enjoying my nicotine break, waiting on Taylor thinking this must be the main entrance, when this huge group of women from all over the world stop and ask if they can take Leah's and my picture. I had to ask why they would want a picture of me and my dog, their answer, "We've never seen a dog that wears shoes, and she is just too beautiful." I laughed a bit and said sure. I then asked them where they were from, I can't remember all the countries but here is some of them,: Wales, somewhere in Austrailia, Sweden, Hong Kong(not sure I speled that right), and I think that Canada and maybe China were in there. I asked how these group of women from all over the globe could be getting together like this, but they didn't hear me or were just too in love with my dog and didn't answer me. So folks, Leah and I are world wide celebrities, we will be on facebook pages around the world. HAHAHA
Once the gaggle of ladies left us I finished my business outside and thought about starting the trek back inside. This was a feat for me because this place is huge! So, I decided before I went back inside I would call Taylor and make sure I could get into the room, and he has checked in and is wondering where I am.
I tell him, I'm outside didn't you see me when you came in? He said no they came in through the parking garage. Duh!
Taylor and his friend that got married, known as Matt from now on, drove to Las Vegas as a sort of man trip thing and Matt doesn't much care for flying. So, of course they had to park the car somewhere right? So, I made it back inside, got to the desk and was finally able to check in. Sweet relief, I would finally be able to get somewhere and get comfortable! The lady gives me my room key, a card that she tells me has the claim number for my luggage, and tells me this guy will help me to my room. I was a bit confused as to why I couldn't have my luggage now and lug it upstairs with me. Turns out the bell hop brings it to your room so you don't have to worry about it! This is just getting more and more awesome!
Dude that helped me to my room was super nice, and a Mav's fan at that! I mean a Dallas Maverick's fan for all you non-basketball folks :) So, we are talking about the game the next night, and how awesome it would be for the Mav's to beat the Heat and put King James in his rightful place! When we run into the bride in the hallway. I was surprised to see her there! We will call her Sera from here on out. So, she takes me to my room, and Taylor is there and I'm just so exhausted I flop down on the bed!
Of course first things first was having her read this card and get my luggage to the room, and like 5 minutes later a guy shows up with my luggage, brings it into my room and puts it on a luggage rack for me!
So, all settled in, I remember a highschool friend of mine texted me while I was on the shuttle, she wanted to see me since I was in her neck of the woods. Her husband is in the Air Force, and they are stationed there for now. We will call her "M" and her husband "T" and her children the kids K? So, I text her tell her I'm in my room and she can come see me if she wants because I'm not venturing out of this room without sighted assistance lol. I'm not all that adventurous! So, she comes over a little while later after getting lost in the parking garage and figuring out the elevator system. Because obviously, they make shit difficult and have elevators that go to certain floors, yeah its confusing.
Its just her and the kids because T is at work, so we sit around for a minute while I hug all the kids, I've seen the oldest 2 when they were babies, but her youngest I had never met and she was just soooo cute! After everyone gets settled down from all the hellos and how have you beens, I ask her if she knows about a grocery store close by because I wanted to get some drinks and snacks for our room, and she knows of one and says she will take me.
Score! Not figuring out the cab system just yet is really awesome! So, we drive for what seems like forever because once again we get lost in the parking garage, we finally get to the grocery store. Getting all the kids out and into a functioning buggy was fun!
Then she tells me there is a guy outside the store selling tamales, it sounded good to me and was all for buying some before my more rational side of my brain kicked in and said "How do you know those aren't going to make you violently ill and spend the rest of your time hugging a toilet?" Once I had my short internal debate, I decided against them. We got into the store, bought a bunch of junk food and some breakfast food, and myself a bottle of wine. I wasn't really wanting to pay like 12-15 dollars a drink.
Once food is bought and put in the car, we head out back to the hotel, but on the way we stop for some food to eat now. We of course grab some fast food and the choice is Wendy's! Just in case you haven't had Wendy's in a while, its not something I'll be missing. They recently changed their fries and they taste horrible!
So, it won't be anything I'm asking for anytime soon.
But I did get to play super blindy getting to the room, because you see I gave Leah the night off and let her stay with Taylor while I went out so I was doing the sighted guide thing betweenM and the kids. Well on the way in the 2 oldest kids were carrying bags and a small thing of water M had the food and the youngest and I had 2 12 packs of cokes! So,once in the lobby I did the whole talk really loud so I can hear and follow you. I did pretty damn good till I totally almost knocked this woman over with a thing of cokes because I got a bit disoriented! Whoops :) I think she thought I was drunk hahahaha!
We all eat, and by now its getting around 9 or so..we say we will try and get together again the next day to hang and she agrees that its the kids bed time. But in this time her kids are loving all over Leah, and of course she is loving it. A good hint to that is the thumpa thumpa her tail is doing. So, of course she asks if she can have pictures of this and I agree, its just too cute! Once pictures are taken I give all the kids hugs and M a hug. She tells Taylor bye and the kids all hug him bye. I ask her to help me down stairs to find the concierge desk to get Leah somewhere to potty. This is the first time they have had a dog stay at their hotel and it takes a minute for someone to figure out what is supposed to be done, but we get a security officer and he helps us find some grass! Can you believe it? Grass in the desert! I think I was more excited than Leah was! Once Leah has finished with her business the security officer takes me back to the elevator.
He asks if I want him to walk me to my room but I decline because I think I can find it, boy was I wrong. Glad Taylor was still in the room! He also gave me the security extension number to call when I need to take Leah out again! Very cool! Once everyone is gone I promptly change into some PJs! We sit around for a while before just decide nothing else is going to happen and try for some sleep! What an end to my first day in Vegas!
So, thats it day 1...it exhausts me just reading it again! Also knowing this doesn't come close to the real thing makes me go how in the world did I do all that? But good laughs were had by all that night and I would do it all over again!
Stay tuned for Thursday's adventure, it has the Bachelorette party in it :)
Thanks for reading,
Amanda Ellen and Leah "International Celebrities"
VIVA Las Vegas
So yeah, I am going to do my best to tell you all about my trip to Las Vegas, Sin City, or one of the dryest places I have ever been! HAHAHAHA
It really wasn't too bad, the weather I mean. I was totally not expecting my allergies to hate it because I mean what is there to be allergic to? Well, I probably should've brought the benadryl, because Taylor and my allergies weren't completely wacky but it would've helped. Also I should've brought Leah's benadryl because the desert is not kind to her allergies or to her skin.
She tried really hard to not chew herself but I guess she just couldn't help it. Poor pup she wasn't completely miserable, but she could've been more comfortable. So, enough about the medical stuff on to documenting my trip!
The plane ride out there started out ok, but once we tried landing our pilot was an idiot or something because when he was trying to descend we ended up doing like a nose dive thing, and it had most of the plane thinking we were going to die.
People screaming and holding each other, and all I could think was I didn't get but like 5 minutes with Taylor before he left and I'm not going to make it to Vegas to be reunited, this is bullshit!
So yeah, the pilot straightened us out and started talking over the intercom saying"In case you haven't noticed, we are making our descent into Las Vegas." Just as calm as a cucumber..pissed me off! But I do have to say he could take up being a tour guide if he wanted, he kept telling us to look out our windows to see some cool stuff.
The main two things that come to mind were the mountains and the Arizona wild fires, obviously both were clearly visible from 30,000 feet in the air. That made me wish I could see! But once I got off the plane the staff at the Las Vegas airport were more than helpful and made me feel very good about getting my luggage and getting to my hotel.
I only wish that checking in at the airport would've been possible, but couldn't since I didn't have the card for the room to be charged to.
The ladies that helped me off the plane, found my luggage with no problem, carried it around for me, and even made sure I got on the shuttle to the airport safely! The shuttle driver was a bit nervous about having a blind person on board, and I had to help him tell me which MGM we were at and figure out if I was getting off at the right one! I never thought to look to see if there was more than one MGM Grand in Vegas, so I started to freak a bit!
So, that covers the getting there part. :)
So, I got there and called Taylor to see if he had arrived, and he said they were there so awesome right? Not so much, I went inside with the help of some other people staying at the hotel and got to the desk to try and check in just to find out Taylor had not checked in yet!
So, its like after 3 in the desert which makes it after 5 in Texas and I'm going on like over 8 hours without nicotine, and in desperate need. I ask the lady at the desk if someone can help me outside to wait for Taylor. They then let me check my luggage at the "Bell Desk," so I don't have to lug it outside with me. How awesome is that?
I know I'm from a small town in Texas and this all just seems way too awesome to me! So, anyways, I'm sitting outside enjoying my nicotine break, waiting on Taylor thinking this must be the main entrance, when this huge group of women from all over the world stop and ask if they can take Leah's and my picture. I had to ask why they would want a picture of me and my dog, their answer, "We've never seen a dog that wears shoes, and she is just too beautiful." I laughed a bit and said sure. I then asked them where they were from, I can't remember all the countries but here is some of them,: Wales, somewhere in Austrailia, Sweden, Hong Kong(not sure I speled that right), and I think that Canada and maybe China were in there. I asked how these group of women from all over the globe could be getting together like this, but they didn't hear me or were just too in love with my dog and didn't answer me. So folks, Leah and I are world wide celebrities, we will be on facebook pages around the world. HAHAHA
Once the gaggle of ladies left us I finished my business outside and thought about starting the trek back inside. This was a feat for me because this place is huge! So, I decided before I went back inside I would call Taylor and make sure I could get into the room, and he has checked in and is wondering where I am.
I tell him, I'm outside didn't you see me when you came in? He said no they came in through the parking garage. Duh!
Taylor and his friend that got married, known as Matt from now on, drove to Las Vegas as a sort of man trip thing and Matt doesn't much care for flying. So, of course they had to park the car somewhere right? So, I made it back inside, got to the desk and was finally able to check in. Sweet relief, I would finally be able to get somewhere and get comfortable! The lady gives me my room key, a card that she tells me has the claim number for my luggage, and tells me this guy will help me to my room. I was a bit confused as to why I couldn't have my luggage now and lug it upstairs with me. Turns out the bell hop brings it to your room so you don't have to worry about it! This is just getting more and more awesome!
Dude that helped me to my room was super nice, and a Mav's fan at that! I mean a Dallas Maverick's fan for all you non-basketball folks :) So, we are talking about the game the next night, and how awesome it would be for the Mav's to beat the Heat and put King James in his rightful place! When we run into the bride in the hallway. I was surprised to see her there! We will call her Sera from here on out. So, she takes me to my room, and Taylor is there and I'm just so exhausted I flop down on the bed!
Of course first things first was having her read this card and get my luggage to the room, and like 5 minutes later a guy shows up with my luggage, brings it into my room and puts it on a luggage rack for me!
So, all settled in, I remember a highschool friend of mine texted me while I was on the shuttle, she wanted to see me since I was in her neck of the woods. Her husband is in the Air Force, and they are stationed there for now. We will call her "M" and her husband "T" and her children the kids K? So, I text her tell her I'm in my room and she can come see me if she wants because I'm not venturing out of this room without sighted assistance lol. I'm not all that adventurous! So, she comes over a little while later after getting lost in the parking garage and figuring out the elevator system. Because obviously, they make shit difficult and have elevators that go to certain floors, yeah its confusing.
Its just her and the kids because T is at work, so we sit around for a minute while I hug all the kids, I've seen the oldest 2 when they were babies, but her youngest I had never met and she was just soooo cute! After everyone gets settled down from all the hellos and how have you beens, I ask her if she knows about a grocery store close by because I wanted to get some drinks and snacks for our room, and she knows of one and says she will take me.
Score! Not figuring out the cab system just yet is really awesome! So, we drive for what seems like forever because once again we get lost in the parking garage, we finally get to the grocery store. Getting all the kids out and into a functioning buggy was fun!
Then she tells me there is a guy outside the store selling tamales, it sounded good to me and was all for buying some before my more rational side of my brain kicked in and said "How do you know those aren't going to make you violently ill and spend the rest of your time hugging a toilet?" Once I had my short internal debate, I decided against them. We got into the store, bought a bunch of junk food and some breakfast food, and myself a bottle of wine. I wasn't really wanting to pay like 12-15 dollars a drink.
Once food is bought and put in the car, we head out back to the hotel, but on the way we stop for some food to eat now. We of course grab some fast food and the choice is Wendy's! Just in case you haven't had Wendy's in a while, its not something I'll be missing. They recently changed their fries and they taste horrible!
So, it won't be anything I'm asking for anytime soon.
But I did get to play super blindy getting to the room, because you see I gave Leah the night off and let her stay with Taylor while I went out so I was doing the sighted guide thing betweenM and the kids. Well on the way in the 2 oldest kids were carrying bags and a small thing of water M had the food and the youngest and I had 2 12 packs of cokes! So,once in the lobby I did the whole talk really loud so I can hear and follow you. I did pretty damn good till I totally almost knocked this woman over with a thing of cokes because I got a bit disoriented! Whoops :) I think she thought I was drunk hahahaha!
We all eat, and by now its getting around 9 or so..we say we will try and get together again the next day to hang and she agrees that its the kids bed time. But in this time her kids are loving all over Leah, and of course she is loving it. A good hint to that is the thumpa thumpa her tail is doing. So, of course she asks if she can have pictures of this and I agree, its just too cute! Once pictures are taken I give all the kids hugs and M a hug. She tells Taylor bye and the kids all hug him bye. I ask her to help me down stairs to find the concierge desk to get Leah somewhere to potty. This is the first time they have had a dog stay at their hotel and it takes a minute for someone to figure out what is supposed to be done, but we get a security officer and he helps us find some grass! Can you believe it? Grass in the desert! I think I was more excited than Leah was! Once Leah has finished with her business the security officer takes me back to the elevator.
He asks if I want him to walk me to my room but I decline because I think I can find it, boy was I wrong. Glad Taylor was still in the room! He also gave me the security extension number to call when I need to take Leah out again! Very cool! Once everyone is gone I promptly change into some PJs! We sit around for a while before just decide nothing else is going to happen and try for some sleep! What an end to my first day in Vegas!
So, thats it day 1...it exhausts me just reading it again! Also knowing this doesn't come close to the real thing makes me go how in the world did I do all that? But good laughs were had by all that night and I would do it all over again!
Stay tuned for Thursday's adventure, it has the Bachelorette party in it :)
Thanks for reading,
Amanda Ellen and Leah "International Celebrities"
Monday, May 30, 2011
A paintbrush, a trip to Vegas, and some other mumblings...
just random thoughts and stuff here this time.
May 23rd marked the 5th year I've been blind and for some reason some days "broken." I did not handle my 5th anniversary well, I cryed, talked to my mom, and asked her the usual question, "Why did this have to happen to me?" Her response, "Because God found the strongest person with the most to gain from this and that was you. He knew you would/could handle it and laid out a different plan than you had planned for yourself." I'm not one to say I'm strong or like some super person because I coped with my plight quickly and quietly. I don't think I deserve that much credit, all I did was realize this was for real, and it wasn't going away and I was stuck this way. I also realized I had 2 choices, I could just deal and figure shit out, or I could wallow in my own self pity and everyone else's and probably end up offing myself. I'm not kidding. So, I chose option 1, because I wasn't quite to the point of wanting to die, sure I thought my life was over and had no clue how I was supposed to move on from this, but nnot sure how I did it. Ever since this "anniversary" I've been a little down, and for what I don't know, life has been pretty great given the circumstances. I mean sure I still have those days I just want to scream and cry because something would be so much easier if I could see, but who doesn't? I've also noticed my self esteem issues are resurfacing, I had horrible self esteem issues right after losing my sight, and I've worked on those for the most part and gotten better. This last week or so, its been tough...I just feel insecure and like everyone is running from me, granted if I look at this objectively its probably me pushing them away. I also am having this complex that "normal" people, and I use that term lightly, wouldn't even talk to me if it wasn't for the fact that they feel sorry for me. I'm just having an issue "flaunting what I got" as far as my disability goes because I fear people's pity. I said it I fear pity, it scares the shit out of me. No clue why this is, but it scares me...everytime I spot someone pitying me, I try to turn it into a joke and play it off like they didn't mean it because it frightens me. Pathetic right? Probably. Maybe I've lost that self esteem because I'm just not as independant as I used to be, or maybe I have just gotten a little paranoid. This is not to say that my blind friends on twitter and such are any less likely to "feel sorry for me" and give me a "mercy friendship" but its for different reasons. If those statements were to be true, it would be because I always feel so clumsy around people, over the internet or in person. I never truely feel comfortable around anyone but my mom and Taylor. There used to be this poem I loved from the Chicken Noodle Soup for the Teenage Soul books, and it was called "Paintbrush," maybe I should see if I can find it. I always felt the person who wrote it was living my life or something, that's how much I related to it.
"Paint Brush
I keep my paint brush with me
Wherever I may go,
In case I need to cover up
So the real me doesn't show
I'm so afraid to show you me,
Afraid of what you'll do--that
You might laugh or say mean things.
I'm afraid I might lose you.
I'd like to remove all my paint coats
To show you the real, true me,
But I want you to try and understand,
I need you to accept what you see.
So if you'll be patient and close your eyes.
I'll strip off all my coats real slow.
Please understand how much it hurts
To let the real me show.
Now my coats are all stripped off.
I feel naked, bare and cold,
And if you still love me with all that you see,
You are my friend, pure as gold.
I need to save my paint brush, though,
And hold it in my hand,
I want to keep it handy
In case somebody doesn't understand.
So please protect me, my dear friend
And thanks for loving me true,
But please let me keep my paintbrush with me
Until I love me, too.
Bettie B. Youngs"
There it is, I just think that poem speaks volumes about me, my life, and my world. I'm not trying to be depressing and it seems it is going that way. Lets turn this blog post around shall we?
So, all my shows on TV are over until September..this sucks. I've been watching old TV shows on netflix for now. I am currently into Ghost Whisperer, and loving it. I've made it to season 2, and tonight Netflix had problems so that's why I'm writing this. I bought a CJ Wilson "Throw Strikes" bracelet tonight, the proceeds go to CJ Wilson's Childrens Charity...plus he is a Rangers pitcher and I love Rangers stuff :) Also, Vegas is coming up soon, it was just creeping up on me, but now its full on charging at me lol. I haven't gotten anything ready..the suitcase is out and the wedding clothes are packed..nothing else pass that has made its way to the suitcase. I need to get on that soon, but glad that Taylor's mom is going to come help my scatter brained self make sure I've gotten everything together that we should need. Well, seems I'm running out of stuff and its late and I'm sleepy.
So please, take the majority of this posting with a grain of salt. Think of it as me whining somewhere other than Twitter and Facebook, I just am starting to feel a wee bit better by getting this out in words.
Thanks for reading if you have made it this far,
Amanda Ellen
May 23rd marked the 5th year I've been blind and for some reason some days "broken." I did not handle my 5th anniversary well, I cryed, talked to my mom, and asked her the usual question, "Why did this have to happen to me?" Her response, "Because God found the strongest person with the most to gain from this and that was you. He knew you would/could handle it and laid out a different plan than you had planned for yourself." I'm not one to say I'm strong or like some super person because I coped with my plight quickly and quietly. I don't think I deserve that much credit, all I did was realize this was for real, and it wasn't going away and I was stuck this way. I also realized I had 2 choices, I could just deal and figure shit out, or I could wallow in my own self pity and everyone else's and probably end up offing myself. I'm not kidding. So, I chose option 1, because I wasn't quite to the point of wanting to die, sure I thought my life was over and had no clue how I was supposed to move on from this, but nnot sure how I did it. Ever since this "anniversary" I've been a little down, and for what I don't know, life has been pretty great given the circumstances. I mean sure I still have those days I just want to scream and cry because something would be so much easier if I could see, but who doesn't? I've also noticed my self esteem issues are resurfacing, I had horrible self esteem issues right after losing my sight, and I've worked on those for the most part and gotten better. This last week or so, its been tough...I just feel insecure and like everyone is running from me, granted if I look at this objectively its probably me pushing them away. I also am having this complex that "normal" people, and I use that term lightly, wouldn't even talk to me if it wasn't for the fact that they feel sorry for me. I'm just having an issue "flaunting what I got" as far as my disability goes because I fear people's pity. I said it I fear pity, it scares the shit out of me. No clue why this is, but it scares me...everytime I spot someone pitying me, I try to turn it into a joke and play it off like they didn't mean it because it frightens me. Pathetic right? Probably. Maybe I've lost that self esteem because I'm just not as independant as I used to be, or maybe I have just gotten a little paranoid. This is not to say that my blind friends on twitter and such are any less likely to "feel sorry for me" and give me a "mercy friendship" but its for different reasons. If those statements were to be true, it would be because I always feel so clumsy around people, over the internet or in person. I never truely feel comfortable around anyone but my mom and Taylor. There used to be this poem I loved from the Chicken Noodle Soup for the Teenage Soul books, and it was called "Paintbrush," maybe I should see if I can find it. I always felt the person who wrote it was living my life or something, that's how much I related to it.
"Paint Brush
I keep my paint brush with me
Wherever I may go,
In case I need to cover up
So the real me doesn't show
I'm so afraid to show you me,
Afraid of what you'll do--that
You might laugh or say mean things.
I'm afraid I might lose you.
I'd like to remove all my paint coats
To show you the real, true me,
But I want you to try and understand,
I need you to accept what you see.
So if you'll be patient and close your eyes.
I'll strip off all my coats real slow.
Please understand how much it hurts
To let the real me show.
Now my coats are all stripped off.
I feel naked, bare and cold,
And if you still love me with all that you see,
You are my friend, pure as gold.
I need to save my paint brush, though,
And hold it in my hand,
I want to keep it handy
In case somebody doesn't understand.
So please protect me, my dear friend
And thanks for loving me true,
But please let me keep my paintbrush with me
Until I love me, too.
Bettie B. Youngs"
There it is, I just think that poem speaks volumes about me, my life, and my world. I'm not trying to be depressing and it seems it is going that way. Lets turn this blog post around shall we?
So, all my shows on TV are over until September..this sucks. I've been watching old TV shows on netflix for now. I am currently into Ghost Whisperer, and loving it. I've made it to season 2, and tonight Netflix had problems so that's why I'm writing this. I bought a CJ Wilson "Throw Strikes" bracelet tonight, the proceeds go to CJ Wilson's Childrens Charity...plus he is a Rangers pitcher and I love Rangers stuff :) Also, Vegas is coming up soon, it was just creeping up on me, but now its full on charging at me lol. I haven't gotten anything ready..the suitcase is out and the wedding clothes are packed..nothing else pass that has made its way to the suitcase. I need to get on that soon, but glad that Taylor's mom is going to come help my scatter brained self make sure I've gotten everything together that we should need. Well, seems I'm running out of stuff and its late and I'm sleepy.
So please, take the majority of this posting with a grain of salt. Think of it as me whining somewhere other than Twitter and Facebook, I just am starting to feel a wee bit better by getting this out in words.
Thanks for reading if you have made it this far,
Amanda Ellen
Friday, March 25, 2011
Very Happy! and Rockin out!
I'm a very happy girl today..I don't think I could've thought to ask for a better day. The only bad thing to happen today was my alarm clock's batteries dieing right before I needed to get up! Thank goodness for being paranoid about over sleeping or I just might have! Today I finished that pesky Freshman Orientation class I had left over from last semester. That now leaves me with just Business Law left from last semester and of course the remaining classes I have this semester. Getting really excited for graduation! Not sure if I am more excited about graduating or just getting to see my parents, that definately has to be a toss up. But everything today was great! It all went much better than a normal day at school usually goes! Can I just say I love the Genius feature in iTunes? I told it to make me a play list from "Walk This Way" from Aerosmith and so far its been a pretty awesome playlist! Ok, back on track! I am having a really big fear that I don't think I've ever had before and not sure why I'm having it now. I really really really want to get my hair colored and trimmed. Well its much cheaper to do this by going to Cosmetology at the school and letting them do it. Problem? Problem is that I'm scared to death to let them touch my hair...and I have no frickin clue what color I want to color it! I know I don't want just highlights...but past that no clue! In case you wanted to know I have really dark almost black hair..with a slight hidden red tint. Yep, so its about to be summer and I want something different. It also has been almost a year since the last time my hair had anything done to it. Well that is if you don't count the haircut the surgeon gave me back in October, which I'm still trying to grow back to a normal length. I started my application for the new school today, now all thats left is to bite the bullet and shell the 30 or so bucks to turn it in. It could take a while for them to accept me! I'm really nervous about next semester since its all going to be from home no going to school...I have a sneaking suspicion I'm going to go a bit stir crazy! Ah, but that should just motivate me to find a route out around the house Leah and I can walk together, one where I feel comfortable that we aren't going to be kidnapped or run over! I really wanted to blog and started and realized I don't have much to talk about hehehehe.
I'm really excited for Vegas, I really hope its awesome! Oh, there is a big lottery tonight...payments were 312 Million and Cash was 200 million..wonder if I won? If I did I will go insane and waste all that money by being locked up in a looney bin! Speaking of Looney bins, I'm really ready to finish watching "One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest" I have heard its not described. That makes me sad..but I'm going to read the book so maybe that will fill in some missing spots. We are watching in my 1960s class right now, realized I forgot to say that :) Elizabeth Taylor died this week, that was sad...I just watched Cleopatra not long before she passed on, and its long, not historically correct, but its not a bad movie. I give it 2 thumbs up. I probably would've enjoyed it more if I wasn't tired when I got about half way through the movie! Speaking of Vegas, here ya go:
Viva Las Vegas Baby
Watched Pretty Woman tonight, as always when she leaves and he doesn't go after her immediately I cry like a baby..I'm such a sap...I even cry when she says good bye to Kit...but I love the movie and it has to be my favorite of all time!
Pretty Woman walking down the street...
Love Julia Roberts here is where she goes shopping!
Stores aren't nice to people, they are nice to credit cards
What's your dream?
And one more for good measure:
The Pretty Woman Movie Trailer
Yep, thats my Pretty Woman kick...catch me later and I may be posting clips of the Wedding Singer! lol...
Well I'm tired and its getting late so enjoy and happy reading!
XOXO,
Amanda Ellen and Leah
I'm really excited for Vegas, I really hope its awesome! Oh, there is a big lottery tonight...payments were 312 Million and Cash was 200 million..wonder if I won? If I did I will go insane and waste all that money by being locked up in a looney bin! Speaking of Looney bins, I'm really ready to finish watching "One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest" I have heard its not described. That makes me sad..but I'm going to read the book so maybe that will fill in some missing spots. We are watching in my 1960s class right now, realized I forgot to say that :) Elizabeth Taylor died this week, that was sad...I just watched Cleopatra not long before she passed on, and its long, not historically correct, but its not a bad movie. I give it 2 thumbs up. I probably would've enjoyed it more if I wasn't tired when I got about half way through the movie! Speaking of Vegas, here ya go:
Viva Las Vegas Baby
Watched Pretty Woman tonight, as always when she leaves and he doesn't go after her immediately I cry like a baby..I'm such a sap...I even cry when she says good bye to Kit...but I love the movie and it has to be my favorite of all time!
Pretty Woman walking down the street...
Love Julia Roberts here is where she goes shopping!
Stores aren't nice to people, they are nice to credit cards
What's your dream?
And one more for good measure:
The Pretty Woman Movie Trailer
Yep, thats my Pretty Woman kick...catch me later and I may be posting clips of the Wedding Singer! lol...
Well I'm tired and its getting late so enjoy and happy reading!
XOXO,
Amanda Ellen and Leah
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Ding! Dong! The Wicked Witch is Dead!
This one could be a doozey, so pull up your favorite chair or couch and have a sit. While you are at it, grab yourself a drink and something to munch since Steve informed me that the blog has no food or drinks. HAHAHAHA
Well, the title is a bit expressive of how I feel. Just take dead out and turn it into gone and that is a good summary. I will start by saying I'm not admitting to anything here or saying I did anything, I'm just stating what has happened. So, the handler of Sausage Dog has made it up in her mind there is no possible way Guide Dog's could have known about her dog being so fat or having health problems unless I told them. Resulting from her thinking that she no longer talks to me. This explains the title. I'm kind of happy about this, because she wasn't exactly the greatest friend for me. She was full of constant drama, whining, bitching, and an all together bring you down kind of person. So, I feel lots better now that she is gone.
Here is a clip of the song:
Ding!Dong! The Wicked Witch is Dead!
To keep with this Wizard of OZ theme, Here is how I feel about the situation and
maybe I should have a heart?
I've been really busy with school that I haven't had much time to think about much, other than school. Calculus and Statistics are kicking my butt though. Well Calculus more than Statistics though. I'm really liking my 1960s literature class and Marketing is a bit redundant in some parts.Still trying to finish some of those classes left from last semester. I only have 2 left to finish now. I did finish my Wellness/Fitness class by completeing 3 miles in the allotted 1 hour time limit given to everyone. I was told that no matter what I finished I would still get full credit, that just fueled me to finish in time even more. Leah didn't like it much, but I was pumped after I finished and very proud of myself. So, I got an A for that class. I also ended up with a B in biology after everything was done. Business Law likes a quiz, a final, and a research paper. My freshman orientation class is just waiting on the teacher to tell me what is left to finish. I still can't believe that I'm graduating this May and its only the first step in a long journey lol.
Here is another song that reminds me of Calculus and Statistics:
Calculus and Statistics, YUCK!
In my spare time, which there seems to be little of, I've been watching American Idol. I know I crossed over to the dark side, but Steven Tyler and Randy Jackson's chemistry really makes it interesting for me. I've picked my favorite guy who auditioned in Austin. I love him while everyone I know hates him. Maybe you guys might like him.
Casey Abrams audition in Austin
He has that very bluesy/jazzy sound. Which deep down and in a place I'm not too scared to admit I have...I love this kind of music. I'm a sucker for something different I guess.
Here is one of my favorites of his. In this video, he is doing his solo performance in Hollywood during Hollywood week or as the judges called it "Hell Week" He is keeping the pretense of being different and plays an upright bass.
Casey's solo during Hollywood week
This one has to be my most favorite performance of his to date:
Not sure who originally does this song, but I love it
Sorry for the onslaught of links, but another few are coming :) This has to be one of my least favorite performances of his, even though I really like the song.
I Put a Spell on You
This is the most recent performance I could find, and he still gives me goosebumps with his voice.
Most recent performance and I just love it!
So this week is spring break, but not for me I'm spending it doing homework. Well Tuesday I'm going shopping with a couple of friends of mine, that ought to be fun :) Everyone needs a break from time to time right?
Gosh, May 5th I'll be done at this college and moving on to another one to finish my bachelors degree. But this summer I get to go to Vegas. That trip has me a bit nervous. I'm flying there by myself and may get there before Taylor and his friend get there. We are going to Vegas to be there for Taylor's best friends wedding. Taylor has been knighted best man. I am making sure someone gets me pictures since Taylor is supposed to wear a suit and this boy is the last person I would have ever thought to be seen in a suit. I think its going to be lots of fun if I can relax and not worry about the minor details. Thats alot of my problems, I over think stuff and over analyze it to death. Life would be so much better if I could just learn to turn my brain off and relax. So that is my goal for the Vegas trip, to relax.
I'm trying to talk my mom into taking me home after graduation, well back to their house, to have a graduation party. I'm sure they won't want to do it, but I really want a graduation party. You may ask why would I want a graduation party now?
Well the answer is simple, I didn't have a graduation party after my high school graduation. My party consisted of TV,my hospital cup full of ice water, my parents couch, and good strong pain meds. My high school graduation was 3 days after I had surgery the first time, the time they installed all this hardware. so, yeah I was just glad to make it through graduation without getting violently ill.
So, to make up for that I want to party this time, for this graduation. Its a bit much to ask for, but I really want it! To be able to celebrate my accomplishment with old friends and my family will be so awesome!
Well, hmm, I would also like to thank Steve for giving my blog back after he hijacked it.
Here is a little Public Service Announcement just for Steve:
Stop using the word"Tweeps" and "Tweople" those words just make you sound like a dork.
HAHAHA
No really, it is just that most people find them really annoying...and my PSA sucked....I guess I need some more marketing classes.
****Pay no attention to those people behind the curtain****
Well, everyone else has gone to bed so I guess its my turn.
I promise, I'll try to update more often and make time for this little place I call my internet home :)
Night everyone and sweet dreams!
XOXO
Amanda Ellen and Leah
Well, the title is a bit expressive of how I feel. Just take dead out and turn it into gone and that is a good summary. I will start by saying I'm not admitting to anything here or saying I did anything, I'm just stating what has happened. So, the handler of Sausage Dog has made it up in her mind there is no possible way Guide Dog's could have known about her dog being so fat or having health problems unless I told them. Resulting from her thinking that she no longer talks to me. This explains the title. I'm kind of happy about this, because she wasn't exactly the greatest friend for me. She was full of constant drama, whining, bitching, and an all together bring you down kind of person. So, I feel lots better now that she is gone.
Here is a clip of the song:
Ding!Dong! The Wicked Witch is Dead!
To keep with this Wizard of OZ theme, Here is how I feel about the situation and
maybe I should have a heart?
I've been really busy with school that I haven't had much time to think about much, other than school. Calculus and Statistics are kicking my butt though. Well Calculus more than Statistics though. I'm really liking my 1960s literature class and Marketing is a bit redundant in some parts.Still trying to finish some of those classes left from last semester. I only have 2 left to finish now. I did finish my Wellness/Fitness class by completeing 3 miles in the allotted 1 hour time limit given to everyone. I was told that no matter what I finished I would still get full credit, that just fueled me to finish in time even more. Leah didn't like it much, but I was pumped after I finished and very proud of myself. So, I got an A for that class. I also ended up with a B in biology after everything was done. Business Law likes a quiz, a final, and a research paper. My freshman orientation class is just waiting on the teacher to tell me what is left to finish. I still can't believe that I'm graduating this May and its only the first step in a long journey lol.
Here is another song that reminds me of Calculus and Statistics:
Calculus and Statistics, YUCK!
In my spare time, which there seems to be little of, I've been watching American Idol. I know I crossed over to the dark side, but Steven Tyler and Randy Jackson's chemistry really makes it interesting for me. I've picked my favorite guy who auditioned in Austin. I love him while everyone I know hates him. Maybe you guys might like him.
Casey Abrams audition in Austin
He has that very bluesy/jazzy sound. Which deep down and in a place I'm not too scared to admit I have...I love this kind of music. I'm a sucker for something different I guess.
Here is one of my favorites of his. In this video, he is doing his solo performance in Hollywood during Hollywood week or as the judges called it "Hell Week" He is keeping the pretense of being different and plays an upright bass.
Casey's solo during Hollywood week
This one has to be my most favorite performance of his to date:
Not sure who originally does this song, but I love it
Sorry for the onslaught of links, but another few are coming :) This has to be one of my least favorite performances of his, even though I really like the song.
I Put a Spell on You
This is the most recent performance I could find, and he still gives me goosebumps with his voice.
Most recent performance and I just love it!
So this week is spring break, but not for me I'm spending it doing homework. Well Tuesday I'm going shopping with a couple of friends of mine, that ought to be fun :) Everyone needs a break from time to time right?
Gosh, May 5th I'll be done at this college and moving on to another one to finish my bachelors degree. But this summer I get to go to Vegas. That trip has me a bit nervous. I'm flying there by myself and may get there before Taylor and his friend get there. We are going to Vegas to be there for Taylor's best friends wedding. Taylor has been knighted best man. I am making sure someone gets me pictures since Taylor is supposed to wear a suit and this boy is the last person I would have ever thought to be seen in a suit. I think its going to be lots of fun if I can relax and not worry about the minor details. Thats alot of my problems, I over think stuff and over analyze it to death. Life would be so much better if I could just learn to turn my brain off and relax. So that is my goal for the Vegas trip, to relax.
I'm trying to talk my mom into taking me home after graduation, well back to their house, to have a graduation party. I'm sure they won't want to do it, but I really want a graduation party. You may ask why would I want a graduation party now?
Well the answer is simple, I didn't have a graduation party after my high school graduation. My party consisted of TV,my hospital cup full of ice water, my parents couch, and good strong pain meds. My high school graduation was 3 days after I had surgery the first time, the time they installed all this hardware. so, yeah I was just glad to make it through graduation without getting violently ill.
So, to make up for that I want to party this time, for this graduation. Its a bit much to ask for, but I really want it! To be able to celebrate my accomplishment with old friends and my family will be so awesome!
Well, hmm, I would also like to thank Steve for giving my blog back after he hijacked it.
Here is a little Public Service Announcement just for Steve:
Stop using the word"Tweeps" and "Tweople" those words just make you sound like a dork.
HAHAHA
No really, it is just that most people find them really annoying...and my PSA sucked....I guess I need some more marketing classes.
****Pay no attention to those people behind the curtain****
Well, everyone else has gone to bed so I guess its my turn.
I promise, I'll try to update more often and make time for this little place I call my internet home :)
Night everyone and sweet dreams!
XOXO
Amanda Ellen and Leah
Monday, March 7, 2011
This Is A Test, And A Hostage Situation
My name is Steve, and starting now, I am holding this blog hostage. Don't worry, I'm not violent. the last thing I want to do is hurt anybody. Ok so that's a bit of a lie. I'd actually like to hurt lots of people, but what's important is that I'm not going to. that is to say that I'm not going to so long as you all cooperate and let me do this the easy way.
Hmmm. I've never taken something hostage before, so I'm trying to remember what comes next. Do I fire warning shots into the air? I don't have a gun, so that could be a problem. Let's see if this works.
BANG! POP! BOOM!
Well, do you feel warned?
I feel like I'm messing up this entire thing. It strikes me that perhaps I shouldn't be threatening you all with ammo letter word sound thingies until *after* I've demanded stuff, so yeah, let's do that.
What I want is simple. I have no long list. I don't want cigarettes or pizza or beer or lottery tickets or whatever other stuff most of us hostage taking types ask for. I only want one thing, and it's not even a self serving one. What I want is to better the world through banishment of something truly horrible. What I want, and I know this may be tough for some of you, is for everyone in the world to renounce the use of the word tweeps. Jimminy Christmas in July, I hate that word! It makes you all sound like such fools, and in the case of some of the guilty I know that fools you are not.
And if it's not too much to ask, can we also knock off tweeple and all other variations? Yes, I think we can. Don't make me word shoot you again, because I will! Do you hear me? Well, do you? Why is nobody answering me!? Why!? Oh wait, it's because you're reading from far away. If you're not far away then you're in here, and I haven't seen you around. But...um...what was I saying again? Oh yeah. I have a keyboard and I know how to use it!
BANGBANGPOWPOWPOWBANGBANGBANGBANGBANG!
See? I mean business here! Stop with the tweep thing and nobody gets hurt. Really, that's all I ask.
Wait, I do ask for one more thing. Please FeedBurner, post this to Amanda's Twitter without incident. I'd like that very much. I'd like it almost as much as I'd like for Twitter to be tweep free.
I hope we don't have to have this talk again. This hostage thing gets old pretty fast, plus I'm getting hungry and I can't find any food in this blog. Perhaps I should have demanded some when I started, or maybe I should just go and hostage take a recipe site.
Hmmm. I've never taken something hostage before, so I'm trying to remember what comes next. Do I fire warning shots into the air? I don't have a gun, so that could be a problem. Let's see if this works.
BANG! POP! BOOM!
Well, do you feel warned?
I feel like I'm messing up this entire thing. It strikes me that perhaps I shouldn't be threatening you all with ammo letter word sound thingies until *after* I've demanded stuff, so yeah, let's do that.
What I want is simple. I have no long list. I don't want cigarettes or pizza or beer or lottery tickets or whatever other stuff most of us hostage taking types ask for. I only want one thing, and it's not even a self serving one. What I want is to better the world through banishment of something truly horrible. What I want, and I know this may be tough for some of you, is for everyone in the world to renounce the use of the word tweeps. Jimminy Christmas in July, I hate that word! It makes you all sound like such fools, and in the case of some of the guilty I know that fools you are not.
And if it's not too much to ask, can we also knock off tweeple and all other variations? Yes, I think we can. Don't make me word shoot you again, because I will! Do you hear me? Well, do you? Why is nobody answering me!? Why!? Oh wait, it's because you're reading from far away. If you're not far away then you're in here, and I haven't seen you around. But...um...what was I saying again? Oh yeah. I have a keyboard and I know how to use it!
BANGBANGPOWPOWPOWBANGBANGBANGBANGBANG!
See? I mean business here! Stop with the tweep thing and nobody gets hurt. Really, that's all I ask.
Wait, I do ask for one more thing. Please FeedBurner, post this to Amanda's Twitter without incident. I'd like that very much. I'd like it almost as much as I'd like for Twitter to be tweep free.
I hope we don't have to have this talk again. This hostage thing gets old pretty fast, plus I'm getting hungry and I can't find any food in this blog. Perhaps I should have demanded some when I started, or maybe I should just go and hostage take a recipe site.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Spring Semester is looming
Well, my last semester of community college starts Monday. It is hard to believe I've spent the last 3 and half years here..but its all almost over...Its bitter sweet. I'm ready to move onto my bachelors, but I've made lots of friends and relationships at this college I don't want to see end.
I know Leah has many friends at the college who she will certainly miss.
But I think I might have over done the last semester...15 hours on top of 8 hours I didn't finish last semester?
So here's the course list:
Statistics
Calculus for Business and Economics
Special Topics Literature class over the 1960s
Marketing
Technical Writing
and then tack on the 2 biology papers to finish which one is done, so only one left, the freshman orientation class I didn't complete, business law I still have some quizzes and a research paper to write for, and my wellness fitness class...yep..I'm going to be a busy bee this semester.
The best thing?
My dad is going to be my escort at graduation since they won't let do some O&M a few days before...That is going to be awesome!
It is hard to believe that in May I'll be an official college graduate...
It makes me feel very accomplished :)
Thats it for now,
I have to research a paper over fetal stem cell research and why I think its ok.
Amanda Ellen and Leah The Princess"
I know Leah has many friends at the college who she will certainly miss.
But I think I might have over done the last semester...15 hours on top of 8 hours I didn't finish last semester?
So here's the course list:
Statistics
Calculus for Business and Economics
Special Topics Literature class over the 1960s
Marketing
Technical Writing
and then tack on the 2 biology papers to finish which one is done, so only one left, the freshman orientation class I didn't complete, business law I still have some quizzes and a research paper to write for, and my wellness fitness class...yep..I'm going to be a busy bee this semester.
The best thing?
My dad is going to be my escort at graduation since they won't let do some O&M a few days before...That is going to be awesome!
It is hard to believe that in May I'll be an official college graduate...
It makes me feel very accomplished :)
Thats it for now,
I have to research a paper over fetal stem cell research and why I think its ok.
Amanda Ellen and Leah The Princess"
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